sooo today is my last day of prometrium so i should get my period soon :) YAY! who knew id be so happy for that to happen-haha. I was supposed to take the med for 10 days, but was feeling so gross and sick and dizzy on it and i called my nurse and she said to just take it for 5 days and it should work just as good, so that makes me happy :) Then i call her and she's going to call me in a script for Femara to take for days 3-7 and set up an apointment for my cd 15 ultrasound-Lets pray that this works!!!!
Other than that, there isnt much going on. Travis and I booked our hotel for our trip this summer. He actually said he'd drive me down to myrtle beach-lol. (i dont do good in car rides at all!) so we're going to stay there from Wed-Sat (June 24-27) and then June 27 my long life friend Ashley is getting married in Fayettville.. YAY! I cant wait for this vacation since i need one so so bad!! (im hoping to be pg by then too and can really relax-lol)
No other things really going on. lol. we closed on our refinance loan, so we got some extra money-so i dont need to worry if trav doesnt work this summer, but we would still like for him to work, bc that's some more extra money and we can pay off some bills (which desperatly needs to be done!)
That's all :)
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
YAY dr apointment update :)
Okay-dr apointment. I went there, and they did an ultrasound, pg test and blood pressure (which was high bc i was nervous-lol) ultrasound was good.. my lining was thick, but not thick enough. pg test was neg (of course) umm.. im going to start promentrium (provera) tonight. and im going to take it for 10 days and then call when period comes. Okay then i go on like day 2 or so and get an ultrasound and script for femara (7.5mg) and im going to take that days 3-7 instead of 5-9 (dont know why-lol) Then im going to go back on cd 14 (or 15) and get a post coital test (which is a test to see how travs sperm does in my cervical mucus and if my mucus kills his stuff-they can also tell how many of trav's sperm are living) and to see how many follies i get. he said since i did great w/ the last cycles of femara-then he will just leave me on that. (which is fine w/ me and its cheaper!) he said we will do about another 3-4 months of femara (since i took the 5 month break then its fine) and if that doesnt work then we'll move on to injections. he didnt want to do the injections 1) bc of the pcos-the chances of overstimulating increase and 2) bc i had 3 big follies last time on just the femara. (which sounds resonable to me) IF the post coital test comes back bad then we will do iui in april along w/ femara. Also, with the femara im going to get the hcg trigger and then that should make my follies release the eggs. OH! also he said that my right tube didnt look blocked, it looked like an air pocket at the opening of my tube ( the air pocket was a big white circle) and he saw some dye actually spilling into the tube (at the opening) and as it progressed, the air pocket moved into the tube, and blocked the dye from going all the way. sounded good to me.Hmmm.. my A1C was great and didnt signal diabetes. My prolactin levels went back down to .4 (that's POINT 4) and it was 35 before.. so that's good. My insulin was still a litle high but im to stay on the dostinex and metformin. He said to be patient (HA! did he know who he was talking to?? lol) Travis really liked him and even thinks we should name our baby after him -lol. his name is dr parker (trav liked the name parker-from our list)I think that's all to tell :) I dont know what else. I just wait for my period now.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Rescue Me Jesus...
We went to the WinterJam with our youth group last night and it was GREAT! God was sooo good and all the kids we took either got rededicated or saved for the first time :) I was sooo moved by that. The song i liked the best was "Rescue" by Newsong. Here are the lyrics:
I can't be left behind
No one else will do
I will take hold of You I need You,
Jesus Come to my rescue Where else could I go?
There’s no other name by which I am saved
Capture me with grace
I will follow You
My heart is Yours for life
I need Your hand in mine
No one else will do
Lord, I put my trust in You
I need You Jesus Come to my rescue
Where else could I go?
There’s no other name by which I am saved
Oh capture me with grace
I will follow You
This world has nothing for me
This world has nothing for me
This world has nothing for me
(I will follow You)
This world has nothing for me
I need You Jesus
Come to my rescue
Where else could I go?
There’s no other name by which I am saved
Capture me with grace
I will follow You
Oh I need You Jesus
To come to my rescue
Where else could I go?
There’s no other name by which I am saved
Capture me with grace
Won't You Capture me with grace I will follow You
I will follow You This world has nothing for me
This world has nothing for me
I can't be left behind
No one else will do
I will take hold of You I need You,
Jesus Come to my rescue Where else could I go?
There’s no other name by which I am saved
Capture me with grace
I will follow You
My heart is Yours for life
I need Your hand in mine
No one else will do
Lord, I put my trust in You
I need You Jesus Come to my rescue
Where else could I go?
There’s no other name by which I am saved
Oh capture me with grace
I will follow You
This world has nothing for me
This world has nothing for me
This world has nothing for me
(I will follow You)
This world has nothing for me
I need You Jesus
Come to my rescue
Where else could I go?
There’s no other name by which I am saved
Capture me with grace
I will follow You
Oh I need You Jesus
To come to my rescue
Where else could I go?
There’s no other name by which I am saved
Capture me with grace
Won't You Capture me with grace I will follow You
I will follow You This world has nothing for me
This world has nothing for me
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
The Broken Clock
A Broken Clock
Be still, and know that I am God;Psalm 46:10
In my office, it is always 5:30. Never 2:15. Never 8:04.
It is always 5:30.
There is a broken clock in my office. People have such different reactions to it! Some look at it with a quizzical look on their faces. Others offer to fix it for us, but we always politely decline.
You see, our clock is broken on purpose. We took a perfectly good, functioning clock, broke it and hung it on our wall. What a huge blessing!
You see, that broken clock is a reminder of the perfection of God’s timing.
At first glance, it appears that the broken clock is worthless. The hands never move. It looks like nothing good is happening. But glance down at the bottom of the clock. The pendulum is still moving. Swinging left. Swinging right. The pendulum never stops.
In the dark days of waiting through your struggle with infertility, it feels like God’s plan for your family has ground to a halt.
No explanations from the medical community.
No prophetic utterances promising that long-sought after child.
Even in the silence of infertility, listen to the ticking of a broken clock.
God, like that pendulum, is still working and moving.
When it seems like nothing is happening, the pendulum of God’s timing is still swinging.
Buy a clock, break it and proudly hang it on your wall.
Let it serve as a reminder of the perfection of God’s timing.
(c) 2009 Sarah’s Laughter-Christian Support for Infertility & Child Loss
Be still, and know that I am God;Psalm 46:10
In my office, it is always 5:30. Never 2:15. Never 8:04.
It is always 5:30.
There is a broken clock in my office. People have such different reactions to it! Some look at it with a quizzical look on their faces. Others offer to fix it for us, but we always politely decline.
You see, our clock is broken on purpose. We took a perfectly good, functioning clock, broke it and hung it on our wall. What a huge blessing!
You see, that broken clock is a reminder of the perfection of God’s timing.
At first glance, it appears that the broken clock is worthless. The hands never move. It looks like nothing good is happening. But glance down at the bottom of the clock. The pendulum is still moving. Swinging left. Swinging right. The pendulum never stops.
In the dark days of waiting through your struggle with infertility, it feels like God’s plan for your family has ground to a halt.
No explanations from the medical community.
No prophetic utterances promising that long-sought after child.
Even in the silence of infertility, listen to the ticking of a broken clock.
God, like that pendulum, is still working and moving.
When it seems like nothing is happening, the pendulum of God’s timing is still swinging.
Buy a clock, break it and proudly hang it on your wall.
Let it serve as a reminder of the perfection of God’s timing.
(c) 2009 Sarah’s Laughter-Christian Support for Infertility & Child Loss
Monday, February 9, 2009
Dr Apointment Update
Good evening. I just got home, well not even home-im at my parents house. We got home around 2:30 (keep in mind my apointment was 10:00-2 hrs away.) i went to work at 3 and then went to eat dinner at 6 and then to the movies at 7 (to see pink panther-pretty funny) now we're here at my parents and im sooo sleepy though!!! Okay-now about the dr apointment. I really like the nurse i spoke with. she is very nice and said-We WILL get you pregnant! lol. She discussed my history and what id like to do and then she told me about a clinical trial. its for a patch instead of the injections. im all for it, BUT id have 10 apointments in 30 days and i have to travel 2 hrs away.. miss work.. and use gas. they pay you $500 but its not worth it to me. You may or may not get the placebo... so i dont know. She did blood work bc she was upset that the old RE didnt redo the prolactin after putting me on meds for it. (which is understandable) she also wanted to check everything else since its been a while... which is fine. she did an internal ultrasound and said that the "cysts" dont look like cysts to her. she said that my ovaries looked multi follicular.. whatever that meant-lol. she said cysts are usually all under 5mm.. and are in a ring arond the ovary (like a pearl necklace) mine are all about 7-8mm and are scattered. so she thinks that they are follies that just dont grow-which is def possible. i also had a 14mm follie on my right ovary (The one w/ the blocked tube) i said, well.. my tube is blocked so it doesnt matter and she told me that the left tube can catch the egg!!! i didnt know that! wow :) lol. Also, i asked about my progesterone levels.. and she said that i got them tested on the wrong dates. she said i got them tested on cd 21 and not 7dpo like i should have been doing (which is truth) she said that if i were to have gotten them checked at 7dpo then they would have been at good levels.. hmm. she was getting very mad at the other drs. She told me more about that trial and if i wanted to do it or not.. i told her id talk to travis about it. i dont think im going to do it though. I will just like to move on with things. lol. I will then be doing either a higher dose of femara and an added drug w/ that (she didnt say which) or injections. we'll see what dr parker says 2 weeks from now. (my next apt is Feb 23) She is supposed to call w/ the test results and im going to tell her my decision about the trial and to see if travis needs to come for the repeat SA. she said my bmi was just right (bc im big boned-lol) and there wasnt a problem w/ trav's SA. just the motility and that was most likely due to the fever, but dr parker may want to re-order one. I forgot to ask about the meds and the prior approval stuff. i guess i will see what dr parker wants to put me on first. i dunno. Well, that's me in a nutshell :)
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Song of Inspriation to me
Sometimes your calling, comes in dream
Sometimes in comes in the Spirit's breeze,
You reach for the deepest hope in me,
And call out for the things of eternity.
But I'm a man, of dust and stains,
You move in me, so I can say,
CHORUS:Here I am, Lord send me,
All of my life, I make an offering,
Here I am, Lord send me,
Somehow my story, Is part of your plan,Here I am
When setbacks and failures, and upset plans,
Test my faith and leave me with empty hands,
Are you not the closest when it's hardest to stand?
I know that you will finish what you began.
These broken parts you redeem,
Become the song, that I can sing
Here I am, Lord send me,
All of my life, I make an offering,
Here I am, Lord send me,
Somehow my story, Is part of your plan,
Here I am
Overwhelmed by the thought of my weakness,
And the fear that I'll fail you in the end,
In this mess, I'm just one of the pieces,
I can't put this together but you can.
Here I am, Lord send me,I wanna live my life as an offering
Here I am, Lord send me,
Somehow my story, Is part of your plan,
Here I am
Here I am,
my life an offering to you,
to you
Somehow my story, Is part of your plan,
Here I am
Sometimes in comes in the Spirit's breeze,
You reach for the deepest hope in me,
And call out for the things of eternity.
But I'm a man, of dust and stains,
You move in me, so I can say,
CHORUS:Here I am, Lord send me,
All of my life, I make an offering,
Here I am, Lord send me,
Somehow my story, Is part of your plan,Here I am
When setbacks and failures, and upset plans,
Test my faith and leave me with empty hands,
Are you not the closest when it's hardest to stand?
I know that you will finish what you began.
These broken parts you redeem,
Become the song, that I can sing
Here I am, Lord send me,
All of my life, I make an offering,
Here I am, Lord send me,
Somehow my story, Is part of your plan,
Here I am
Overwhelmed by the thought of my weakness,
And the fear that I'll fail you in the end,
In this mess, I'm just one of the pieces,
I can't put this together but you can.
Here I am, Lord send me,I wanna live my life as an offering
Here I am, Lord send me,
Somehow my story, Is part of your plan,
Here I am
Here I am,
my life an offering to you,
to you
Somehow my story, Is part of your plan,
Here I am
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Devotional
Guys.. i wanted to share somthing with you. let me find it-lol.
I read this in my devotion book-the title of the chapter is called when the answer is no.
what does God say we should do when He answers with "No"?
When heartbreak sends us reeling, does the Bible offer any instruction? The Bible tells us to praise Him. We may not feel thankful for our situation, but we can express our thanks for what God can do through it. God has no troublel working miralces in unexpected ways and at unlikely moments.
Just as we know God exists, even when all the evidence of our lives seems to point the other way, so we know God can grant us a child even when all the evidence runs contrary to that possibility. God loves to give us incredible glimpses into His nature when the line breaks between what we want and what He has chosen to provide.
Second, the Bible instructs us to pour out our hearts to God, telling Him everything, even our shameful thoughts of discouragment and doubt. Isaiah 30:26 promises that "the Lord binds up the bruises of his people and heals the wound he inflicted"
Finally, we are called once more to wait. God promises us that we will not mourn forever. Every greif has its season, and it will pass as surely as snow melts into spring. Of course, God may also allow us to weep for a night, a time so blackened with tears, envy, rage, and disappointment that we feel almost engulfed. But God promises that a moring of rejoycing lies ahead, a sweet dawn of unexpectedly tender mercies and blessed deliverance.
Prayer: Lord, when your answer is no, it crushes us. We often plunge into a night of bitter grief and tears. but you have more planned for us just ahead, a bright morning of rejoicing. When we see nothing to rejoice over, remind us that we have no yet reached the end of our journey, even if your answer today is no. You are leading us into a new place, a place we could never have imagined before we began our pursuit of parenthood. Help us to trust you, to want to be where you lead! help us to trust you with the bitter disaapointments and the lonely silences, and help us to believe you will yet give us a reason to rejoice.
sorry that was so long. i didnt realise it though-oops. i hope that it gives ya'll some insight. I love this book. its called moments for couples who long for children :) its good.
I read this in my devotion book-the title of the chapter is called when the answer is no.
what does God say we should do when He answers with "No"?
When heartbreak sends us reeling, does the Bible offer any instruction? The Bible tells us to praise Him. We may not feel thankful for our situation, but we can express our thanks for what God can do through it. God has no troublel working miralces in unexpected ways and at unlikely moments.
Just as we know God exists, even when all the evidence of our lives seems to point the other way, so we know God can grant us a child even when all the evidence runs contrary to that possibility. God loves to give us incredible glimpses into His nature when the line breaks between what we want and what He has chosen to provide.
Second, the Bible instructs us to pour out our hearts to God, telling Him everything, even our shameful thoughts of discouragment and doubt. Isaiah 30:26 promises that "the Lord binds up the bruises of his people and heals the wound he inflicted"
Finally, we are called once more to wait. God promises us that we will not mourn forever. Every greif has its season, and it will pass as surely as snow melts into spring. Of course, God may also allow us to weep for a night, a time so blackened with tears, envy, rage, and disappointment that we feel almost engulfed. But God promises that a moring of rejoycing lies ahead, a sweet dawn of unexpectedly tender mercies and blessed deliverance.
Prayer: Lord, when your answer is no, it crushes us. We often plunge into a night of bitter grief and tears. but you have more planned for us just ahead, a bright morning of rejoicing. When we see nothing to rejoice over, remind us that we have no yet reached the end of our journey, even if your answer today is no. You are leading us into a new place, a place we could never have imagined before we began our pursuit of parenthood. Help us to trust you, to want to be where you lead! help us to trust you with the bitter disaapointments and the lonely silences, and help us to believe you will yet give us a reason to rejoice.
sorry that was so long. i didnt realise it though-oops. i hope that it gives ya'll some insight. I love this book. its called moments for couples who long for children :) its good.
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