Been a While

Wow-Its been a while.. Sorry.

Not much going on. I went to the dr on Feb 21 and I found that I had 4 big follicles, I was very excited! But my lining wasnt thick enough, so I had to go back. I went back on Wed, Feb 24 (my mom's bday), and I found out bad news :( My follicles stopped growing and the Femara stopped working. I was sooo devastated!!! I was to start on Provera and wait for my period then to call when I get one. I will be doing Femara again, along with trigger shot, and then another IUI (IUI #4). I know that this is a hurdle that I have to face in order to get my baby. But I know that this is all in God's plan. Without Him, I wouldnt be where I am today. I know that this is long and winding road, and the adventure is hard, but I will have to keep faith... .and trust in the Lord.

I have emailed my nurse and asked about injections, but she never wrote back. and that's okay. our original plan (after the lap) was to do 3 iuis and then re-assess... so that's what we'll do. I am just a tad impatient ;) if it was in God's will for injections, then that's what we'd be doing....

It hurts, Im not going to lie about it, the pain of knowing that maybe (hopefully not, but maybe) that we wont ever be able to have our own biological child, is hard. its like a knife to your heart when you get a negative on a pg test or hear that your meds stopped working and now what? its just hard... but i have to keep going.. i cant give up on my dream or my child/children and i know-one day, my time will come :) Until then, i just wait.

On another note, i hate provera (the stuff to make me get my period) it makes me so crabby and grouchy and just plain moody-lol

that's about all for now :)