I havent posted in a while, so i thought id update you with my post-op. i had it on friday.
My dr did a quick exam of my incisions and then a pelvic (yuck) my scars are healing nicely-still itchy as can be though!!! grr. and everything felt good. i had a pg test done, and of course was neg. i got to see some interesting pics of my insides, they were really cool. they found some slight endo on the outside of my uterus and burned it off. so that should help. the dr told us that even that little bit will hinder things from happening... so im happy that they took it off :) We have decided that we are going to induce a period with provera, and then after i get my period i will take femara on days 1-4 and then use ovulation tests to have timed intercourse. i am hoping that this will do the trick and God will decide to bless us really soon!!! Also, we decided if we dont get pg by Jan 2010 with the timed intercourse then we will do another IUI in Jan or Feb (or maybe Dec-hehe) im just hoping we dont need to go that direction and that God is going to bless us :) (in His time!)
nothing else really going on. I have decided to keep myself busy. I have a few projects around the house that i want to get done. I want to re-do the walkway to the house, with new rocks and stepping stones. then i want to tear out the bush on the side of our house and plant tulips and put down mulch. i also want to paint one of the spare rooms, but i know as soon as i paint it-i will need to just repaint it for a baby :) lol. (which is fine w/ me!) i would love love to paint the brick on our house, but i dont think travis would like that too much-lol. we have decided to replace the flooring in the "Titans" room. Its going to be a rubbery type floor-the kind that they use in weight rooms :) red and blue of course. other than that.. im just trying to get things together for some Christmas gifts. id like to make some this year. we'll see.
that's all for now, i thought id update my blog since its been a while :)
Monday, August 31, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Healing
I thought id update and let ya know that im healing just great :)
I went back to work today, and it was an uneventful day-until i came home. My navel (belly button-lol) keeps bleeding, which i dont know why. my nurse never emailed or called me back, so im assuming its not a big deal. Im in ALOT of pain in my stomach now that everything is healing and stretching back to normal. I still cant bend over, but what do ya do.. lol. that's my job.
Im just so excited to see what God is going to do in the next couple of months. They say that the next few months are the best for us to try to conceive naturally-and that's just what we're going to do. We're just going to TRY to conceive without the help of fertility meds. If we dont get pg, and we WILL, before Jan 2010 we're going to go back on fert meds and do an iui right away. We'll see. We're leaving it ALL in God's hands for now :)
Travis and I had a great night together, we watched I Love You, Man. and 17 Again. They were pretty good movies. It was nice just to sit around and do nothing.
That's about all :)
I went back to work today, and it was an uneventful day-until i came home. My navel (belly button-lol) keeps bleeding, which i dont know why. my nurse never emailed or called me back, so im assuming its not a big deal. Im in ALOT of pain in my stomach now that everything is healing and stretching back to normal. I still cant bend over, but what do ya do.. lol. that's my job.
Im just so excited to see what God is going to do in the next couple of months. They say that the next few months are the best for us to try to conceive naturally-and that's just what we're going to do. We're just going to TRY to conceive without the help of fertility meds. If we dont get pg, and we WILL, before Jan 2010 we're going to go back on fert meds and do an iui right away. We'll see. We're leaving it ALL in God's hands for now :)
Travis and I had a great night together, we watched I Love You, Man. and 17 Again. They were pretty good movies. It was nice just to sit around and do nothing.
That's about all :)
Worry
here is my daily devotional for today :) I thought it was wonderful!!!
Worry
22...And He said to His disciples, "For this reason I say to you, do not worry about your life, as to what you will eat; nor for your body, as to what you will put on.
23 "For life is more than food, and the body more than clothing.
24 "Consider the ravens, for they neither sow nor reap; they have no storeroom nor barn, and yet God feeds them; how much more valuable you are than the birds!
25 "And which of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life's span?
26 "If then you cannot do even a very little thing, why do you worry about other matters?
27 "Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; but I tell you, not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these.
28 "But if God so clothes the grass in the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, how much more will He clothe you? You men of little faith!
29 "And do not seek what you will eat and what you will drink, and do not keep worrying.
30 "For all these things the nations of the world eagerly seek; but your Father knows that you need these things.
31 "But seek His kingdom, and these things will be added to you.
32 "Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has chosen gladly to give you the kingdom.
Luke 12:22-32
Are you a worrier? Do you worry what people think about you? Do you worry that you worry too much? Do you worry that you don’t worry enough? Worry can be a heavy burden to carry on your journey through infertility.
As infertile couples, there are many issues that we face that other people don’t even consider. For example, the dreaded baby shower! Other people get an invitation to a baby shower and the only complaint they have is that they don’t have time to run to the store to pick up a gift! The woman who struggles with infertility knows what’s inside the envelope as soon as she sees it in the mailbox. It weighs at least 1,000 pounds as she carries it inside! She has to sit down and cry for a few minutes before she garners enough strength to open it up and read it. What makes it worse is that the shower is for her sister! She forces herself to read the “happy” news, and writes the date and time down on her calendar, right next to the reminder that she has another appointment for blood work on the same day. As she wipes her eyes and blows her nose, she wonders how she’ll make it through another baby shower. Oh, she’ll go! It’ll kill her, but she’ll go! Why? She worries what people would think if she didn’t go to her little sister’s baby shower. She worries that her mom would get angry or that her sister would get her feelings hurt if she didn’t go. She worries that her family would think she didn’t love her new niece if she stays away. She worries that she’ll be viewed as selfish if she forces herself to go, but cries the whole time. She just worries.
She worries about her future too. She worries about where the money will come from for her next round of treatment. She worries that the medicine won’t work as well this time. She worries that the strain is going to be too much on her marriage. She worries that if she is never able to conceive, that she and her husband won’t be able to agree on whether or not to adopt. She worries that if they can’t agree on adoption, that they will never have children. She worries that she will die alone. She just worries.
Do you realize that the very same God who said to you “Do not kill,” and “Do not steal,” also says to you “Do not worry”? He says not to worry because not only does worry weigh you down and make you fearful, worry does nothing to help the situation! And which of you by worrying can add a sing hour to his life’s span? How beautiful it is for God to tell you not to worry! He can do this because He is the One who can make right all the wrongs in your life! He has all power and authority in Heaven and in earth and He tells you not to worry! He even hold authority over infertility, and He tells you not to worry! Fertility-challenged sister, do not worry!
In Luke 12, some men approached Jesus and were asking Him to settle a dispute among family members regarding an inheritance. They were worried about their financial future! Along with teaching them that their worth didn’t lie in the possessions they owned, Jesus assured them that for a child under His keeping, worry had no place.
Wouldn’t you have loved to have been there? I’ll bet a raven flew overhead and Jesus must have pointed skyward and said “Look at those ravens, fellas. They’re not worried about what they’ll eat today! God feeds them. Don’t you know you’re worth so much more!” Maybe there were lilies growing wild in the fields where He was teaching that day when He said to His listeners “Hey guys! You’ve heard about Solomon. Even his finest robes couldn’t compare to these lilies. Wanna know why? Because God clothes them. He’ll take care of you too.”
He says the same to you today. “Don’t worry, daughter. I know the desires of your heart. You feel all alone in this struggle, but I’m right there with you. I’ll take care of you through it all.” You simply don’t have to worry. Whatever God’s plan is for you, He tells you not to worry because He is fully capable of taking care of you throughout the entirety of His plan. From start to finish, you are under His care, so you can find rest.
Does that mean every thing will be easy sailing? Not necessarily. But we know that God has known every day of your life from beginning to end (Psalm 139:16), and He is fully capable of seeing you through good days and bad, happy times and sad. No matter what you face, whether it is pregnancy, miscarriage, adoption, joy, sorrow, or any combination thereof, God is able to see you through. And because He is able to see you through, He says to you, don’t worry.
Worry
22...And He said to His disciples, "For this reason I say to you, do not worry about your life, as to what you will eat; nor for your body, as to what you will put on.
23 "For life is more than food, and the body more than clothing.
24 "Consider the ravens, for they neither sow nor reap; they have no storeroom nor barn, and yet God feeds them; how much more valuable you are than the birds!
25 "And which of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life's span?
26 "If then you cannot do even a very little thing, why do you worry about other matters?
27 "Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; but I tell you, not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these.
28 "But if God so clothes the grass in the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, how much more will He clothe you? You men of little faith!
29 "And do not seek what you will eat and what you will drink, and do not keep worrying.
30 "For all these things the nations of the world eagerly seek; but your Father knows that you need these things.
31 "But seek His kingdom, and these things will be added to you.
32 "Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has chosen gladly to give you the kingdom.
Luke 12:22-32
Are you a worrier? Do you worry what people think about you? Do you worry that you worry too much? Do you worry that you don’t worry enough? Worry can be a heavy burden to carry on your journey through infertility.
As infertile couples, there are many issues that we face that other people don’t even consider. For example, the dreaded baby shower! Other people get an invitation to a baby shower and the only complaint they have is that they don’t have time to run to the store to pick up a gift! The woman who struggles with infertility knows what’s inside the envelope as soon as she sees it in the mailbox. It weighs at least 1,000 pounds as she carries it inside! She has to sit down and cry for a few minutes before she garners enough strength to open it up and read it. What makes it worse is that the shower is for her sister! She forces herself to read the “happy” news, and writes the date and time down on her calendar, right next to the reminder that she has another appointment for blood work on the same day. As she wipes her eyes and blows her nose, she wonders how she’ll make it through another baby shower. Oh, she’ll go! It’ll kill her, but she’ll go! Why? She worries what people would think if she didn’t go to her little sister’s baby shower. She worries that her mom would get angry or that her sister would get her feelings hurt if she didn’t go. She worries that her family would think she didn’t love her new niece if she stays away. She worries that she’ll be viewed as selfish if she forces herself to go, but cries the whole time. She just worries.
She worries about her future too. She worries about where the money will come from for her next round of treatment. She worries that the medicine won’t work as well this time. She worries that the strain is going to be too much on her marriage. She worries that if she is never able to conceive, that she and her husband won’t be able to agree on whether or not to adopt. She worries that if they can’t agree on adoption, that they will never have children. She worries that she will die alone. She just worries.
Do you realize that the very same God who said to you “Do not kill,” and “Do not steal,” also says to you “Do not worry”? He says not to worry because not only does worry weigh you down and make you fearful, worry does nothing to help the situation! And which of you by worrying can add a sing hour to his life’s span? How beautiful it is for God to tell you not to worry! He can do this because He is the One who can make right all the wrongs in your life! He has all power and authority in Heaven and in earth and He tells you not to worry! He even hold authority over infertility, and He tells you not to worry! Fertility-challenged sister, do not worry!
In Luke 12, some men approached Jesus and were asking Him to settle a dispute among family members regarding an inheritance. They were worried about their financial future! Along with teaching them that their worth didn’t lie in the possessions they owned, Jesus assured them that for a child under His keeping, worry had no place.
Wouldn’t you have loved to have been there? I’ll bet a raven flew overhead and Jesus must have pointed skyward and said “Look at those ravens, fellas. They’re not worried about what they’ll eat today! God feeds them. Don’t you know you’re worth so much more!” Maybe there were lilies growing wild in the fields where He was teaching that day when He said to His listeners “Hey guys! You’ve heard about Solomon. Even his finest robes couldn’t compare to these lilies. Wanna know why? Because God clothes them. He’ll take care of you too.”
He says the same to you today. “Don’t worry, daughter. I know the desires of your heart. You feel all alone in this struggle, but I’m right there with you. I’ll take care of you through it all.” You simply don’t have to worry. Whatever God’s plan is for you, He tells you not to worry because He is fully capable of taking care of you throughout the entirety of His plan. From start to finish, you are under His care, so you can find rest.
Does that mean every thing will be easy sailing? Not necessarily. But we know that God has known every day of your life from beginning to end (Psalm 139:16), and He is fully capable of seeing you through good days and bad, happy times and sad. No matter what you face, whether it is pregnancy, miscarriage, adoption, joy, sorrow, or any combination thereof, God is able to see you through. And because He is able to see you through, He says to you, don’t worry.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
day 2 of rest
Well, today marks day 2 of my resting period. Ive been bored, but my sister came to see me yesterday, and my brother kept me fed, and my mom came over and did my dishes. Ive got pretty good help :) Travis has been a HUGE help, waiting on me hand and foot! I just hate that i have to wake him up to get out of bed.
Last night i didnt sleep good, i tossed and turned. about 1am i went to sleep in the recliner, but then the cat kept bothering me. so about 5am i went back to the bed, and then woke up about 10:30. Im sore, bc im healing, but i just keep on remembering that this is God's plan-and THAT is what is keeping me going :) God has a great and wonderful plan for all of this, i just get to wait it out and see what it is.
I think today im going to attempt to go to eat lunch w/ my family-we'll see. i have to have a pillow w/ me at all times, behind my back-so i look like a dork. i dont know if we're going to try movies tonight or tomorrow after church. that's another thing im going to attempt, church. i need to be back in good shape to work on monday. if not, i will still go to work-just wont be at 100%. We'll see. All in all, i think im healing better and faster than what i thought i would :)
That's it for now, nothing too exciting.. just another bump in the road :)
Last night i didnt sleep good, i tossed and turned. about 1am i went to sleep in the recliner, but then the cat kept bothering me. so about 5am i went back to the bed, and then woke up about 10:30. Im sore, bc im healing, but i just keep on remembering that this is God's plan-and THAT is what is keeping me going :) God has a great and wonderful plan for all of this, i just get to wait it out and see what it is.
I think today im going to attempt to go to eat lunch w/ my family-we'll see. i have to have a pillow w/ me at all times, behind my back-so i look like a dork. i dont know if we're going to try movies tonight or tomorrow after church. that's another thing im going to attempt, church. i need to be back in good shape to work on monday. if not, i will still go to work-just wont be at 100%. We'll see. All in all, i think im healing better and faster than what i thought i would :)
That's it for now, nothing too exciting.. just another bump in the road :)
Friday, August 7, 2009
Battle Scars, and Swollen stomach
here is a nice pic of my battle scars and my swollen belly. lol
I had an interesting night of tossing and turning and then finally managed to sleep. then i had to pee, and trav had to wake up to help me, bc i cant sit up good from laying down. I also had to wake up early to shower before trav left. now im watching saved by the bell the college years. (im lame, i know)
After all this pain, gas, cramps, sickness, sore throat, i just have to keep remembering and praying that this is ALL in God's plan and that we WILL get our baby! I am so greatful that God is so good. This is all going to be worth it and i will not regret one minute of it!!!
Catch ya later :)
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Laparoscopy today
Good evening! im here (barely) and alive. lol ;) its wasnt so bad. hehe. i dont even remember going to the OR and all the gave me before that was motrin! haha. they didnt give me good drugs to take at home, just to take 800mg of motrin. someone help me, ive never taken motrin. they only sell it in 200mg (that trav could find in the walmart brand) so i take 4 of them?? im not in alot of pain, but the nurse said to take some as soon as i feel somthing. hmmm. lol. i couldnt rmemeber where i was when i woke up-haha. and the alarms were beeping bc my heart was racing! lol. it took about an hr total... they told me that the endo (even just a little bit of it) could hinder conception. i dunno though-haha. they found some on my uterus (outside i think) and then on my ovaries. i didnt really get to talk to the dr bc she had to devilver an emergency c-section to like a 15 year old!!!! i am at home, waiting on trav to bring me subway. im starving! i actually ate really good aftewards. i had some gingerale and crackers. and then chick fil a on the way home.. just the chicken and choc milkshake. now im wanting cookies sooo bad! haha. no one to bake them. im not too sore, but just a little-make sense. sort of like bad menstrual cramps and uterine cramping. and here is TMI for ya! i go from one extreme to another, so now im constipated-LOL. and im peeing like crazy-im assuming from the cath? it burns really bad-and they said that was normal for the 1st 24hrs. my friend told me that i will be sore tomorrow, so we'll see. ive been keeping hydrated and not moving around too much. O-and my stomach is orange!!! haha. from that betadine. i would take pics but you might barf-LOL.
That's alll... now we wait :) We're going to naturally try to conceive until Jan. hopefully that we get pg by then :) Im sort of anxious to see what happens!!! okay-gotta eat :)
That's alll... now we wait :) We're going to naturally try to conceive until Jan. hopefully that we get pg by then :) Im sort of anxious to see what happens!!! okay-gotta eat :)
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