Today I have alot of mixed emotions about things. I have been reading some blogs about adoption and watching some you tube videos and im just bawling. I know that this month isnt over, but I just feel that ONE DAY-maybe not today, but one day we are meant to adopt. I dont know when, but I dont think its now. I dont think that God's time is now but one day.
In other news, I meant to share this with you readers. I have been thinking alot about my faith and trust in God. And when I think about it, this is the Bible verse that keeps popping into my head : For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
God KNOWS the plans for our lives. He will give us hope and a future... who knows what-only God.
The other night, the night before our iui we were walking into Wal-Mart in Winston and I was just sooo nervous for the next morning. I was just thinking "God, a sign would be nice right about now" and lo and behold I look up in the sky and see this:
and it was just soo weird bc at that moment i felt peace. Sure, this month might not be THE ONE, but whatever reason, its God's time. and I know that Im at peace w/ what may or may not happen. I know some people dont believe in "signs" but I feel that God speaks to us in ways that we cant even imagine. May it be through song, an image on the computer or tv, a person that we dont even know who tells us somthing bc God spoke to them, a feeling in our heart, a cool breeze out of nowhere, or a rainbow. God speaks to us in different ways.....
So for these next couple of weeks, I ask this... just pray... bc God knows the desire on our hearts and He knows what the plans for our life is.
Awww... that post gave me cold chills and tears in my eyes! You are such an inspiration to me, and I KNOW that God is with us, and He has a plan, a GREAT one for both of us!! You will get your baby... and adopting too would be great! I admire you for not jumping straight to adoption and keeping the strength to keep trying for your baby :) I pray that this will be the month and your sign was God's way of telling you that!
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